Archive for October, 2009

October 26th, 2009

Memories of Germany


Today, I read the blog of a BFA staff couple. They serve as dorm parents and have two young children. Looking through their photos reminded me of what it was like to live in Germany as a kid; we lived there for about a year when I was seven. A few of the photos on their blog made me think I was looking at my family from the 90s, in our glorious purple, pink and black jackets and head socks, these wonderful fuzzy tubes of fabric that my sister and I wore on our heads. These may be called tube scarves in real life.

So, in honor of being a child in Germany, I thought I’d recount some of my memories. Here I go.

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October 9th, 2009

Learning to Love


And now a post about something real.

The past three years haven’t been my best. I had a lot of expectations about what I thought should happen, and when they didn’t happen, I didn’t respond well.  This seems to be a reoccurring pattern in my life. When we graduated from John Brown, the plan was to stay in Northwest Arkansas for two years and then move to Seattle to go to grad school. So I lived a temporary life. I didn’t invest in anything. I didn’t make new friends. I just survived until we got to the next thing. But then we thought we were pregnant and that rocked our little world. We weren’t pregnant, but we thought that maybe we’d like to be. So, Seattle went out the window and babies flew in. I also applied to grad school at JBU. School didn’t work out and neither has a baby. In April, we began the process of looking for a house, which was also unsuccessful.

I can see now why those things didn’t work out. If we’d had a baby, or a house, or I’d been in grad school, we wouldn’t be able to move to Germany within a few months time. But, at the time, I didn’t know that. With each new disappointment, I withdrew from God. I started to doubt whether he had good things for me and whether he loved me. Believing lies, that’s also a recurring pattern in my life. I began to look more at my disappointment and sadness and less at God’s goodness and faithfulness. I withdrew. That’s what I do when I don’t know how to handle something. I withdraw into myself and away from real life.

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October 6th, 2009

Can You Feel the Love?


After returning from Telephone, Israel had a short three days work-week before we headed to the Jernigan home in Muskogee. We spent three days with the family in Muskogee. Hannah and Ash arrived from Australia on September 24th. Besides the few hours we saw them before heading to Telephone, we hadn’t seen them at all. And since we’d never met Ash, it was very important that we get to know him. Israel is the older brother, after all.

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October 5th, 2009

A Visit to Texas


Just so you know, the photo header is not Texas. It’s Arkansas. I took it on the way back from Texas. I felt obliged to tell you. You know, just in case you decided to move to Texas just from looking at that photo and then were really surprised when it wasn’t hilly and green.

Last week, Israel took a couple days off so we could head to Texas to see my family. It was a crazy-busy weekend, with not as much family time as I wanted, but we got to see a lot of people, which was the point.

Israel’s sister Hannah has been in Australia for two years studying at the Hillsong International Leadership College. While there, she met her soon-to-be-husband Ashley, who we call Ash. They came in on Thursday evening, so we headed to Muskogee to see them. It was so good to see them. They were exhausted, of course, but when we arrived everyone was playing Apples to Apples. It was the first time the whole family, all 14 of us, had been together in almost two years. Friday morning, we went to IHOP for Ash’s first American breakfast. I’m sure he was very impressed.

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