August 1st, 2009
One of the things I am struggling with is the feeling of not providing for myself. I won’t be the one who provides the income that Dani and I live off of. I’m used to making money and making enough to support our family, and it is hard for me to think about what it would be like to rely on others for our provision.
I’ve been reading a book that Dani and I received from another couple (who are now overseas) and it is full of challenges to overcome when learning to trust in the Lord for support. It’s been a great resource so far.
July 31st, 2009
Lord guide my thoughts and my heart as I seek you. Give me wisdom beyond what I’m capable of doing, and understanding to know what I should do.
I was lead to read James. I read James 1, and it touched upon some things that I am trying to decide. Currently, Dani and I are still unsure what decision(s) to make. Germany could change our lives. And so I’m struggling with all of the changes that brings. So, from James, I will start with a challenge and an encouragement.
July 28th, 2009
The world is too easy, too hard to not let my life be a part of it. Working a daily job, living in the states, having friends who love us, a family always in reach—those are the norm and expected lives to lead. That life, that way of daily norm, that decided safety, is not real living. Not the way I want to live.