March 8th, 2010

The Support Side of Things – Part Two

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The Support Side of Things - Part Two

Well, I have been trying to write this post for over a week. It was kind of an up and down week for me, and I’ve been unable to translate what I think and feel about support raising into words. I usually do better when I’m feeling optimistic and positive. This week, I had some rather frustrating days when all of my thoughts were dark.

If you gathered from that little introductory paragraph that I’m not always very excited about support raising, you’re right. Sometimes, I’m not. Sometimes it sucks. It can be scary, and frustrating, and discouraging and impossible. I often feel like we’ll never get to Germany, and, if we do, it certainly won’t be in a timely manner. I often put off calling certain people because they intimidate me (terrify might be a more accurate word). Sometimes I leave an appointment and think, that person didn’t get our vision all. Sometimes I lay in bed at night and think, God, what are we doing?

Those are the bad days.

But there are also really good days. Like last Wednesday, when I had dinner with a single friend who said she wanted to give $100 a month. I was floored. The next day, a woman who we’ve never even met said she wanted to give $150 a month, to start with! People (that’s how my grandpa always addresses crowds), that’s 5% of our monthly budget in 24 hours! That was a good day.

Then there was the night when I was tired and sad—and had been for two weeks. I was laying in bed watching Hulu— because I was tired and sad—and Israel came in to show me a text message he’d just received. A couple from church wanted to give $100 a month and $200 the first month. That was a good day too.

And sometimes, the people who I’m terrified to call one day, don’t seem so scary the next day. And occasionally we have really encouraging meetings with people. And sometimes, we’ll get an email from someone who’s prayed for exactly what we’re dealing with that day. And there are times we get money in the mail, because we’ve run out.

Those are the good days.

In the past six weeks, we’ve been all-in and indifferent, hopeful and hopeless, hardened and convicted, downtrodden and encouraged—along with a whole slew of other emotions. Support raising is most certainly a growing process. We’re learning to trust God’s provision in very basic, practical ways. We’re learning to trust the Holy Spirit to bring people to our support team, instead of relying on our own charisma and pretty words. We’re learning to believe, in a whole new way, that God is good, and wise and capable to completing what he has begun in our lives. And during our times of doubt and questioning our sanity, God has affirmed that this is exactly where he wants us to be, and that he has uniquely prepared us to serve BFA and love the kids there.

When we started this new phase of support raising in January, we had 25% of our monthly support. As of this morning, we have 45%. We still need to raise at least 35% more ($1,900) in the next 24 days in order to leave in April, and we know that’s a huge task. But we’ve seen glimpses of God’s provision and power and ability over the past few weeks. We’re still hopeful that God will cause a tidal wave of support to flood our account. And if not, that’s okay. We trust that we’ll be at Black Forest Academy at the perfect time. We’ll keep doing our part and trust him to do the rest.

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  • Rebekah says:

    God IS good! I was so encouraged when I read this. Dani and Israel: You ARE going to make it. God has a way of taking situations that seem impossible and turning them into reality in front of our eyes. There are days when I am reminded over and over again how wonderful and awesome he is, and how silly my human understanding can be.

    When talking with my mom about raising my own support for my trips, she was just like “Bekah, it’s simple. If you’re supposed to go, it will happen. Stop worrying.” Easier said then done, I know. But every day God shows me how true it is.

    “Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

    “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor.”

    I’m sure you’ve heard that a million times over and over again but I am reminded every day of how much this is true. I was also reading in 2 Corinthians 11:9 where Paul said that whenever he needed funds or supplies, he relied on God and his brothers in Macedonia to provide them. God slapped me in the face with this one: we shouldn’t feel guilty or afraid for asking the people of God to provide. It is God’s money in the first place, and second: this is what the Body of Christ is supposed to be doing for one another.

    It is God’s work that is getting done, so naturally God will provide the money. I know, I know those words are hard to swallow when you’re less than a month away from your departure time and you see a huge gap from where you are to where you should be. But take heart! It’s really in God’s plan. It will happen 🙂 Our job is to trust.

    “If Timothy comes, see to it that he has nothing to fear while he is with you, for he is carrying on the work of the Lord, just as I am. No one, then, should refuse to accept him. Send him on his way in peace so that he may return to me. I am expecting him along with the brothers.” 1 Corinthians 16:10-11

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